As the World Turns

 

Hello all,

L had several family issues, and honestly did no have the time to devote to me, so I let him go earlier this year.  Since then I have met one submissive (age 35, but looked older than me), but that was a fizzle and dud, as that the one and only time we met, he said he felt like he was hanging out with his mom, due to our 13 year age difference.  Honestly, and yuck!

I have a playmate that I try to get together as often as possible to work over for mutual satisfaction.  I'm hoping he's free soon.

I have met a young man (in his 30's), an have gotten to know him.  I want to take his as my submissive lover, but every time we try to get together, something comes up.  For instance we were supposed to get together today at 1100, and he discovered that he had a fever blister (of which I got photographic proof), so POOF!, there went our playtime.

There are two submissives, one in Vienna, and one is Wiener Neustadt (outside of Vienna), from FetLife that I'm trying o set up initial meetings with, and one from CollarSpace that I am meeting next Tuesday in Tulln.  Hopefully one of these pans out to be a submissive that I can train to eventually own.

As for my marriage,  no longer (and haven't for some time) want to live with my husband.  I'm so over the incessant arguing, and him trying to pick fights with me.  I'm trying to find PT work, so I can live alone in the tiny house we share.  As I've  mentioned before, we've had a completely platonic relationship for ages now.  He told me today that if he has to move out that he'll get a girlfriend (like I care).  I've been telling him for years now to find someone that he can be intimate with.  I don't know why he thought that saying that would hurt me.  I want both of us to be happy, and we are not happy together.

We did not know each other at all when we married, which is the crux of the problem.  We are complete and utter opposites...  I'm joyful, positive, high energy and playful, and he's morose, negative, low energy, and stoic.  If we would have taken the time to get to know each other better before we married, we wouldn't have married at all.

That's all I really have to say.  I hope you are all well, and happy.