The "L" Word

No, no, not love, and not lesbian..  L is the first letter of the submissive I've been chatting with.

At all hours of the day I find myself fantasizing all the wonderfully kinky stuff that I want to do with him.  After my hiatus, finding out that I still hunger for these things brings me an incredible amount of joy.

What I can tell you about L is that at age 66, he is a gorgeous silver fox.  He's kind, compassionate, and funny.  He also has a strong mind and stands by his convictions.  He has morals and standards, and is close with his family.  Once he submits to a Dominant he's gives his all.  He showers me with adoration, and I know that when we finally are together in person, he will shower me with devotion.

He's a lovely man.

Interesting New Developments

Hello all!  Sorry about disappearing... I just needed a break.  I wanted to share what is going on with me.

Whore is still gone, and to this I say good riddance.  I never knew when he was gong to disappear, and reappear, so at this point I am just happy that he's gone.

I met a couple of men since then and one I played with from December 2015 to June of 2016, when he had to return home due to familial problems.  I wish him nothing but the best on his journey.

For years now my husband and I haven't connected.  I don't remember the last time we had sex, but I know that it's been years.  I am not made for a celibate life.  We live a platonic roommate relationship, and that's not what I want.  I've considered leaving him for a while now.  I just need to make a final decision on this.  I still love him, but I need so much more than what I am getting, and he is unwilling to give it to me (and I'm not even talking about BDSM).

Recently I started getting to know an intelligent, kind, compassionate, and devoted submissive, who lives on the east coast of the States.  I was seriously surprised to meet someone like him on CollarSpace.  As a general rule I only get losers that send me one line messages telling me what they want from me.  This man, I'll call him L, has his life together, and wants to submit to a strong, dominant women who will treasure his gift of submission.  He's what I've been wanting for ages.  We've grown very fond of one another, and are enjoying getting to know each other better on a daily basis.  L and I are looking forward to where this journey will take us.

On the health front I had a partial left knee replacement in September of last year.  I've gone through PT one, but need to do it again.  In 2018 I'm supposed to have my right knee done.  I feel like the bionic woman.

Having the gastric sleeve done a few years ago has changed my life.  I was 368 pounds and now I'm 183 pounds.  I am having skin removal surgery this Spring, and am very excited about this!  Above is a recent photo of me (I'm going back to platinum next month).  I feel beautiful and sexy, and it's been years since I've felt this way.  It's fantastic!!

Well, there you go!  A short update on me.  I will be writing more often, especially since I feel inspired again.

Hope you're all doing well.  All my best to each and every one of you.

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